Saturday, December 10, 2011

The Road Ahead

The Back Trail

Since the beginning of the second Solar System, we have been involved in the Long Struggle with the Forces of Retrogression. Although the many, many battles have always involved all three of the lower dimensions, most of them were focused on the dense physical plane. On that plane, we have killed each other, and anything else that got in the way, by untold billions. At their core all of these battles were and are in reality only different chapters in the Long Struggle to prevent the effort on the part of the Retrogressors to subvert human freedom and the evolution of consciousness on this planet.

The Actual Situation

In the most recent World War, (circa 1914-1945) through the world around defeat of the Retrogressor’s Forces, the Forces of Light achieved an extraordinarily crucial victory on the dense physical plane. If the Retrogressors had been successful in obtaining atomic weapons, and the struggle had continued with the use of atomic weapons, the planet and humanity would be vastly different today. However, great as the victory was, it was only on the dense physical plane. The “door where evil dwells” was not finally closed, and it was not, as we have seen over the last 67 years, the war to end wars, or the end of the struggle.

During the last 67 years, the Light forces have managed to keep the majority of the battles off of the dense physical plane. Those that did break out were successfully contained in a relatively small areas of the globe. However, today, even as we meet here and meditate, battles of epic proportions are being waged on the subtle dimensions of the mental and emotional fields of human life. The battle is still totally global. It has multidimensional and multifaceted fronts in all of our institutions: systems of government, economy, politics, religion, education, health and welfare. It takes only a moment to look over the globe to realize that, although being waged on the subtle dimensions, these encounters produce no less terrifying results on the dense physical.

The Hidden Revealed

The Retrogressors are international. They pay allegiance to no country, and care not at all which nations suffer under their actions. Their ultimate global strategy of is to reinstitute the age of Kings. By whatever name that works, they aim to recreate a two tier system of total domination over the planet. As it was in the past, this system would consist of a small ruling elite, perhaps 1% of the total population, and the rest of us.

The Retrogressors are enormously powerful on the lower dimensions. They observe absolutely no rules of battle or anything like compassion or mercy, and yet, they are finding it be very difficult to control 7 billion individuals. We have all bemoaned the problem of “over population”. The fact is that the planet under a rational system of right sharing could easily support with beauty and harmony more than 7 billion souls. It fails only when the systems of energy distribution are malfunctioning, as they are today.

It well may be that the presence of the 7 billion souls is a significant factor in the Light forces ability to contain the Retrogressors as well as we have. It does appear that a significant percentage of these 7 billion individuals have actually evolved through the evolutionary process of reincarnation to a point of being somewhat group conscious. I mean, you and I have. What makes us so special?

It is the growing presence of group consciousness that, for the first time in history, the strategy of the Retrogressors, is being seen, and understood by very large segments of the international public for what it is: The struggle between the 1% who own/control 90% of the world’s resources and the 99% of the rest of us.

The Immediate Challenges

Consequently, the Retrogressors are all about getting rid of people. What better way to achieve that than an atomic war? Thus, to bring the struggle back to the dense physical is their immediate objective and the rationale behind all of the “minor wars” which they engineer and hope to be able to escalate into global atomic confrontations. Today, if a major war breaks out on the dense physical, given the presence of atomic weapons and the willingness to engage in the use of poison gas and biological war, even if the forces of Light win, humanity will be set back thousands of years.

The Exposed Secret Weapon

That the planet is presently enormously out of balance is strikingly apparent. This imbalance appears in many ways but none so obvious as the totally distorted sharing of planetary wealth. In the pursuit of their grand scheme of a two tier system, the Retrogressors or 1%ers have consciously and systematically deployed their power, the almost total control over planetary wealth, to create and maintain a stealth system of slavery over humanity.

This kind of stealth slavery denigrates and devalues labor and gradually indentures individuals by binding them in chains of debt. The Retrogressors manage this by diverting and impounding energy or wealth from the systems blood stream into their own exclusive and separative coffers. They thereby remove an enormous part of the world energy from circulation.

This forces individuals to go into debt, to sell their freedom, to become indentured, just to maintain anything like a decent standard of living. This situation finally results as we have all too frequently witnessed in massive unemployment, despair, discouragement, the outbreak of starvation, disease, anarchy, and warfare over what little there is left.

The Great Understanding

Although the picture, particularly the world financial picture, does not look that rosy, the success of evolution has resulted in large advances for humanity in many areas and is seriously impeding the Retrogressor’s time table. It is this fact which accounts for the their present level of fury, their insanity or madness and is generating their tireless efforts to bring the conflicts down to the dense physical plane. However, we have, I think, learned that war on the dense physical simply does not get anything done.

The results of our victory in the last world war have shown us, I think, that the Retrogressors cannot be killed, or eliminated through physical plane warfare. They, and the problem they present to us, cannot be dealt with on the dense physical plane at all. And if it came to dense physical plane war, win or lose, they would be much happier with a world population of a few hundred million or so.

The Revelation

However, although these individuals cannot be killed, they can, because of the expansion of human consciousness, be exposed and made irrelevant. It is exactly this result which the expansion of consciousness from the separative, self centered individual to the group conscious soul centered person is achieving. To expose their sick dead end agenda, and to be made irrelevant not only defeats the Retrogressors, it makes them, well, irrelevant to the further evolution of the planet. Although this is a fate toward which they are not pleased to go, it is their inevitable doom, and has been so from the beginning.

Among the most striking results of this phenomena of the expansion or, more accurately, the evolution of consciousness is the recognition by the individual human being of one’s self in others. This recognition creates a realization of relationship or the embryo of brotherhood. And from this realization their flows a natural evolutionary development which is the willingness to actually do unto others as one would have them do unto one’s self.

The Power Of The Good

This recognition of kindness and the automatic extension of love to others is, in short, what we call service. Service is a natural indicator of the presence of Soul or our Truth. Service is always automatically rendered to what is a spontaneous recognition of the Light in the brother or sister. This Light is the Good. As Soul presence evolves through our efforts to implement this recognition of the Good our skill in spontaneously recognizing it evolves. Eventually, we realize that it is the Good which is Common to us all and that the Common Good is the only Good there is.

So, the way ahead is pretty clear. Our job is to make the principles of the Common Good and its companion, the General Welfare, high profile concepts in the vocabulary of the planetary intelligentsia and the general public. If you have noticed, these two terms have pretty much resisted the efforts of the Retrogressors to render them meaningless. They make efforts to link them with such terms as socialism and communism and liberalism and so forth, but it is pretty hard to speak out against the Common Good.

We need always remember that energy follows thought, and when the focus of a couple of billions of our brothers and sisters zeros in on the Common Good and the General Welfare, the 1% will become basically irrelevant. Thus our meditation work for 2012 will be focusing on empowering these two Deeply Esoteric concepts through the penetration of meaning and significance and the embodiment of the inevitable Light which follows.

Cleaning Space

Also. we will be ramping up the use of the “sub-plane Clearing meditation” which we have been using for the New Moon on line mediation. We have been including an abbreviated and focused form of this clearing and seeding meditation in the distribution phase of our daily mediations, and we will make this available to everyone.

This sub-plane clearing meditation is the most effective way of distributing the Light contacted in our meditations throughout the Planetary etheric body. This process of filling space with Light or the Good not only drives the incoherent and discordant formulations of chaos from the planes, but it makes this Light much more readily available to any person anywhere who is working with Goodwill for the Common Good and General Welfare at any level on any task at all from driving a bus to planning a new government

Let us all so remember, that in this work, by making them irrelevant, we are rendering a great service to our brothers who are imprisoned in their old thoughtforms of power and privilege. We are setting them free from this planet so that they will have an opportunity to evolve elsewhere.

Tom Carney

Sagittarius, 2011

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

What The Maple Said.
There is a pretty good sized maple tree boarding my back patio. I have been acquainted with it for 35 years or so, and have watched it grow both in height and width. Being one of the not so many deciduous trees in my immediate ken, I have always been aware of the spectacular changes that this friend goes through each spring and autumn. The autumn color change is very late this year. It is the last day of October now and the transition is underway.

It was a nice sunny day, and I was spending a little quiet time on the patio last evening. The westering sun was lighting up the crown of the maple with that wonderful soft evening light. The leaves, big, five pointed, deep green ladies which swing back and forth on their stems in the slightest breeze, were tinging with all sorts of shades of red and soft yellows which looked especially deep in this particular light. The tinging begins on the edges of each leaf and gradually moves into the leaf’s center. Lots of the leaves were at various stages in this process, and the tree, which is wide enough to practically fill my vision, looked stunning against that deep blue the sky gets toward sunset.

I was just sitting there quietly enjoying the beauty of the evening, when one of the more brilliant leaves suddenly detached from its branch and began to fall. It rotated slowly as it fell. It was sort of a melancholy thing, and I wondered if the tree was sad about the approaching loss of its leaves.

I heard an emphatic statement. “Not at all!” And I then noticed this space in the center of the maples canopy which was not quite in focus. It appeared to be shimmering, and I figured that was the source of the statement I had heard in my head. So, I asked it what that meant.

“This is a period of great joy for us. We have completed another round of service to the Great Plan. We are returning to our Mother’s store house of Life that which we used to make the leaves and grow our trunk and branches. We have cleaned much air, and generated much oxygen. We go through this fire ritual as a celebration of the Mother’s love for all that have lived in us and used our shade and beauty. We look forward to a period of assimilation and rest now as we prepare for the next round in the Great Cycle of the Mother’s breath. She breaths. We live. We serve.”

This little conversation has unhinged a part of heart memory, and a door of understanding has opened. Years ago I watched and old man come out into the alley-way that ran between our two houses every day in the autumn of the year and rake up the leaves that had fallen from a very large willow tree in his yard. It was a ritual thing. It went on for 3 or 4 weeks. He was absorbed in his labor, diligent, careful, and there was a kind of beauty and joy in the scratching rhythm of his raking.

I wrote a haiku that fall which I did not understand until now.

Wind rakes the Willow
Old man rakes the fallen leaves
Life rakes the old man

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

In The Arms Of the Mother

Note: The following blog was given as a talk at the full Moon meditation for Aries in Los Angeles California on Sunday September 17th

We stand now within a field love wisdom a field of heart energy woven together by the beautiful ritual of recognition and gratitude which always creates or manifests in group cohesion and power.

As a group of dedicated and determined disciples we are immersed in what Master M calls the great Act of Reconstruction. We are co-creating the New World. We are working with the energy of Synthesis which has been brought into our reach through the combined efforts of Christ, Sanat Kumara and the Avatar of Synthesis.

This inflowing extra systemic energy is creating and empowering enormous and unavoidable energy vortices throughout our planetary life. These energy vortices impact human consciousness as highly enhanced and refined manifestations of the ancient Principles of Cosmos. They create very rapid and extremely violent change.

Over the past 150 years there have been many examples of the action of the inflowing synthesis energy: The Civil war in the United States lasted four bloody and destructive years and created basic significant changes to the American Constitution. The great war which we call World War I and II lasted a total of 10 years. It was extremely violent ending in atomic explosions and changed the face of the world enormously. Compare these events with the old wars of Europe, the 100 years war for example which lasted 114 years and resulted in little if any significant change in human freedom.

These recent wars had to do specifically with the principle of Freedom an Ageless Cosmic Principle about which we know very little. Master D. K. has pointed out that Freedom is “one of the attributes of Cosmic Deity like will, love and mind.” It “is a leavening energy which can permeate substance in a unique manner….” The sudden uprisings of oppressed masses throughout the Middle East are current examples of the impact of the Synthesis energy on human consciousness. While not as physically violent as some, it is notable that in Egypt, it took only 19 days from the day of revolt to the resignation of Mubarak.

It is vital that we realize that the growing presence of these high frequency vortices of synthesis in our planetary life have caused enormous change. They will continue to do so. Their presence is the Cosmic reaction to the great imbalance and discord that humanity’s actions over the centuries has caused to manifest within the planetary life.
Cosmos will have equilibrium through reconstruction. End of discussion.
Synthesis is the process of reconstruction. It absorbs the Life Force from the gross, dark, inharmonious and discordant forms in which human ignorance and selfishness has encased it and builds new more coherent lighted and beautiful forms in all areas of human living.

This Evening, the Luminaries with whom we will be working are ultra powerful. The energies following into our field through our alignment with these Luminaries augment and empower the energy and work of the Christ, Sanat Kumara and the Avatar of Synthesis. This is Aries. This is the Launch. If you have ever watched the launch of the space shuttle from Cape Canaveral you get the idea of what we going to meet this evening.

This level of power has always characterized Aries. What is different today from, say two or three hundred years ago, is that humanity is much more capable of receiving and containing this energy. The reason for this new ability is the evolutionary development of group consciousness and the manifestation of that development is visible right here in this room, right now. If you would look back over the past 150 years or so at the evolution of group consciousness you would get a good idea of why Master M. calls this reconstruction.

A little understood but primary effect of the development of true group consciousness is the emergence of the long submerged and denied presence in every human being of what Master M. calls the Devine Feminine. This emergence is, by the way, one of the factors, perhaps the major, which has to be in place before the Christ’s appearance can actually be registered by humanity. The primary evidence of the emergence of the feminine principle is the growing presence of the frequency of love wisdom within the human psyche.

We speak of these things as if they were a list or if they happened in some sort of order. The truth is that these events are 4th dimensional occurrences. They all happen all at once. It is our underdeveloped vision that sees them as “knowledge or as force expressing itself”. We process them as data, rather than experience them as real events in consciousness. As we continue to evolve into our heritage we will be more and more able to think, that is to use “love-wisdom which is energy in action.”

You may think it strange that I would be talking about the divine feminine in an Ares talk. However, it is acute that we understand the attributes and qualities of the feminine principle. They are the power of Goodwill and— the basic function of the Divine Mother—the power of receptivity. We need to understand how these qualities connect with the Heart or seat of love-wisdom which is the only aspect in Cosmos that can register and hold energy this refined or at this power level.

As we approach the point of contact in our meditation, we will endeavor to bring the entire power of the group feminine principle into play. We need to be 100% receptive. This is the great power of the Mother. She is able to contact receive and hold the inflowing energy of Divine Will, and to subsequently give that will form and birth in the dense physical world. This is all possible because She is the vessel of Love Wisdom. She is Venus the Goddess of Love Wisdom.

It is also instructive to consider the force field into which these energies are being directed which is Libra, the balance. The Ray energies at play in Libra are all along the first ray line of will and power; Rays 3, 5, and 7. Again there is no second ray present; however, the being that holds the balance is the Mother of the World, the vessel of Love Wisdom. Who better to weigh and Judge than the Divine Mother?

It is the expansion of consciousness that accounts for our ability to finally register these always existent facts, for if we think, that is use the heart to ponder on this, it is clear that when the consciousness expands, it moves from knowledge into Love-Wisdom. From one dimensional analysis into fourth dimensional experience.

So, this evening, as we enter into the heart of this co-creative ritual we call the full moon meditation work, let us do so with deep love and gratitude for our Planet and all its myriads of beings and for ourselves and for those who guide and help us. Only thus will be able to stand receptive in the arms of the Mother.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Waking The Dead
From Independence to Resurrection

Identifying the dead or, hopefully, the only sleeping, is, of course, a necessary aspect of resurrection. Can’t raise the living, they are already raised or awake so to speak. So, if comfort, as the Master said, is the cemetery of the spirit, then we know where to find the sleeping, the dying and already dead. They inhabit the Waste Land about which T.S. Eliot talked so eloquently in his great, celebrated, but not heard, praised, but not practiced, poem by that name.

These are the sleep walkers the dying and the dead. These are hollow men the somnambulistic “head pieces filled with straw” about whom T.S. Eliot talked in another of his poems.

Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass.

To be more specific, these relatively dead whom we must resurrect, are the inhabitants of the so called, rapidly dwindling, “middle class.” These folks are “middle” because they stand, on the scale of material accretions, or shell like bodies that gradually turn humans into lobsters, between the wealthy, most of whom are beyond resurrection because they are already lobsterized or simply beyond resurrection or more bluntly, soul dead, and the dirt poor…meaning that they do not even have any dirt.

“Middle” class, in my life time, has always been an euphuism that meant not really acceptable but not quite noxious. The family had a house, or at least a mortgage they could pay, a car or two. The kids had shoes and relatively stylish clothes to wear. Christmas, a time of incredible disappointment and emotional stress, was still a time of presents even if they were disappointing. We went on vacations around the country. Maybe the mother worked which meant that we could “upscale” a bit, move, maybe a couple of blocks closer to the beach, or to a slightly less obnoxious neighborhood.

It also meant that little attention was paid to anything that did not have to do with sustaining this “life style” at all costs. There were no mental patients walking the streets. In those days. If by chance one had the uncomfortable experience of seeing a mental patient or a homeless person—which was the operative euphemism before there were literally tens of thousands of homeless people who were certifiably sane, able and employable human beings walking the streets and pushing their grocery carts full of black plastic bags and random collectibles that may be useful on a cold night—he or she was ignored. And after a phone call or two, sort of, like a disfiguring weed in the dichondra, the comfort offending person was pulled up, or sprayed with something so he or she would go away.

Little attention, if any, was paid to foreign anything. It took 50,000 dead and several murdered and wounded children at Kent State to get our attention long enough to stop the Viet Nam war. The primary reason the current boondoggle war is entering its ninth or tenth year is that there is no draft. The children who were killed wounded and/or mentally destroyed in Iraq, and are still being killed wounded and/or mentally destroyed in Afghanistan are not members of the Middle Class. They do not disturb our comfort.

So, what’s the wakeup call going to be this time?

In the present economic landscape, it is said that the income of the middle class has stagnated and is falling. It was bound to be that way. Unlike evolution in a cooperative driven system progress in a competition based and driven system devolves. It is a downward spiral motion in which each turn of the spiral gets smaller. Fewer and fewer can make it into the ever tightening wheel of progress. In a 2004 report, the top 1% of our population controlled 50.3% of the total financial assets of the U.S. The bottom 90% only held 14.4% of the total US financial assets. It was estimated that the bottom 20% of this 90% had 0, that is Zero, wealth.

This situation in the past five years has accelerated to the point where some estimates place 70 to 80% of the worlds wealth in the hands of the top 1%. The other 99% shares, very inequitably I might add, the remaining 20% or so. The “dirt poor” have increased correspondingly.

We all know about unemployment. Several millions of us have intimate experience with it and the destruction of any shred of the “American Dream” into which we may have worked ourselves over the years. And for the “lucky” ones, those still employed, the concept of “upward mobility” which was the backbone of the Dream has suffered several fractured vertebrae. It was recently observed by Arianna Huffington that we were behind the French in upward mobility which she compared to the French being behind us in croissants and afternoon sex.

Well, it looks like this situation is finally getting some recognition at least from the millions who have been demoted from the comforting life style of middle classiness and the additional millions who daily hear the threat of their own impending devaluation. The descent into the lower class reality is not anything that these people have ever expected or been prepared for. It is an absolute mind blower. It consists of realities that have been totally out of the vision of comfort into which they were more than likely born and with which they had been accustomed: unemployment, after the 99weeks of unemployment, zero income, eliminating their own, let alone their kids, cell phone coverage. If they still have a house, turning off the heat in every room except the one they are in. Food shopping if they have the cash, at Costco, otherwise looking for food banks at which they will not be recognized. No new shoes. Clothes from the good-will for everyone. Forget Christmas!

It’s like falling off a cliff that has no discernable bottom. The story keeps getting more and more horrendous. Soon there is no medical insurance. You get to watch the children get and stay sick just as you get and stay sick.

This is wake up time. Time to get resurrected. Time do something about this intolerable and totally unfair and un-American situation. This is the Land of the Free and the Home of the Brave. Time to be both free and brave. That is if you want Liberty and Justice for all. This is a Soul call. This is the Big Knock on the Door that we needed to wake up.

We can and will straighten this mess out. This is not what the United States of America is about. This is not what we, when we were the Forefathers, gave our lives for. This is not the Nation dedicated to the fact that “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness. That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed….”

So, what are we going to do? Not just sit here and take it!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Message From the Mountain Top
We enter the next cycle aflame. Passing through the burning ground of Scorpio we came out on fire. Many of the encumbrances that had banked our inner flame were transfigured, and we came forward with hearts aflame. This led to many new challenges in Sagittarius as we attempted to sight the new Path. These challenges were tests to see if we had sufficient heart to initiate the new direction.

Our presence here indicates that we have!

All around the world now we have gathered on the mountain top or in truth in the Ashram which is our mountain top. This is our annual re-grouping of the incarnated warriors where we come together to pledge ourselves once again to the salvation of the world at all cost.

Thus, we who arrive on the Mountain Top in Capricorn have demonstrated our readiness to face the extreme challenges that await us in the unfolding cycle.

I am urged to speak about the heart because the heart is the only path through that which awaits us. “Only the energy of the heart makes a man invulnerable and carries him over obstacles. Thus, one should remember the heart as a weapon. Precisely the heart is the weapon of Light!” Heart #399

Thus, friends, Our endurance and will to achieve has carried us joyfully, if somewhat battered, to the Mountain Top. And here we stand;

However, Capricorn is not about arrival. It is about departure and emergence.
We came here to leave. The Word for us is “Lost are we in that Light Supernal, yet, on that Light we turn our back.” Esoteric Astrology P 174

Why, you might ask, why, after struggling so hard to get here, why do we turn our backs on this Light? Why not linger a while and enjoy the fruits of our work? Take a little break? Get a little nirvana time?

Well, because we are warriors. We gave up nirvana. The inchoate cries of our suffering brothers and sisters who are still in bondage to the Great Lie generates a pull on our hearts that cannot be ignored.

We are the brothers and sisters in the Field or in incarnation if you like. We are the vanguard of the Fifth Kingdom. We will emerge from this place of Light, the “birthplace of the Christ, the place of the second birth” Esdoteric Astrology P.103 as it is known. We will emerge from this staging ground for the externalization of the Hierarchy, carrying the Light of the new cycle into the gloom of our troubled planet.

We will be triumphant in this effort because behind us stands and shines through us the Great Heart of the 5th Kingdom. Thus cheerfulness and Joy light our way, for “Joy is a special Wisdom. Cheerfulness is a special technique” New Eara Community #163

The dark challenges toward which we are moving will manifest and confront us in a multitude of shapes and degrees of stress. These dense forms and the shapes which they assume are not the point. Those forms and shapes are all, without exception, constructs of chaos and glamour. Their shapes mask energy vortexes of fear and greed and hate.

We will not fear, for we have issued forth from the “doorway into life of those who know not death”. Esoteric Astrology P.83 We will suffuse space with the ultimate power of the Silence of the Heart.

The battle cry of our heart is, as it has ever been, “Let Light and Love and Power Restore the Plan on Earth”

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

The Weather of Hate

What is not clearly understood about these situations and the long devastating list of similar ones that Rachel Madow gave on her show is just how the emotional climate we create effects us all. When persons with charismatic power such as a Limbaugh or Beck whip up the currents of fear and hate it creates weather on the emotional dimension. This weather is full of the dark energy and qualities of hate and fear, jealousy, and rage which they use to stir and then release their brews into the emotional field.

We all live and move within this field and this weather has different effects on different ones of us. For the vast majority, this kind of emotional weather is something in which we would rather not be caught. Thus, the major effect of the weather of hate and rage may not be the stirring up of the already unstable ones of us to the point that they will and do commit these all too predictable events. However, that this weather very definitely creates and encourages the conditions for the release of the chaos which these sorts of brothers harbor, and release is doubted only by the ignorant. So it is causal in the fact that it generates the emotional conditions where those who are on the edge will step over and act. If our discourse were filled with goodwill and the honest concern for the Common Good and General Welfare, such events would all but disappear.

But this is not the major effect of these hate filled storms. NO. The major effect is to turn off those of the intelligentsia who might otherwise be interested in the political discussions. It is a terrible blight on our community processes which depend totally on cooperative interaction for the benefit of the whole. It has created a society where the majority of the citizens have checked out. They do not vote, do not care to be bothered by any of our challenges. It has turned us into consumers of trivia and anything that will entertain us and not threaten us with these kinds of weather.

Check the total number of individuals who attended sporting contests like football, baseball and basketball games or who watched American Idol and compare that with the number of individuals who actually went to the poles in the last election.

But there is no escaping this kind of weather. It is in our emotional body and we have to swim in it and cope with it on a daily basis. It would be a great thing to eliminate such vitriol. To stop the dumping of this toxic waste into the water in which we all must swim.